It’s been a while

Well like always, I fell out of keeping up with this blog as the few of you who read this may have noticed. I was never good about updating everyday, and after a while it seems I just forget about it all together.

College is good, I changed my major from Commercial Music to Music Ed. starting this semester. My first semester went well, I got all A’s and a B, not including recital attendance which I failed because of my poor time management skills. Oh well, pretty good for the first time around no?

So what else has been going on in my life? Well basically the same thing as always. There was a girl, I’m really attached to her, and yet I can’t be with her. Story of my life yes? Indeed… but I don’t think I’ll ever just “get over” this one. She’s definitely something special. I mean, well basically words just wouldn’t do it justice. If you could take the word perfect and make it into a person, that pretty much sums up what she’s like. Cheesy, but accurate indeed. Not sure what’s going to happen with it, but if I ever get a chance I am gonna make it count.

Other than all that, life has been pretty quiet. I’ll see if this ever gets updated again =P

-Dave

Updates

Well unfortunately I figured this was going to happen again. I’m not very apt at keeping up a blog it seems so bare with me concerning the sparaticness of the posts. It’s been about 2 weeks since I got to Millikin, and I can definitely say I love it. College is a great experience, and I have made a bunch of new friends that are really cool. I do find it slightly odd that I’m not more homesick. I had a dream last night that I was actually very homesick, yet when I woke up this morning I really felt like everything was fine and I didn’t miss it much anymore. Bizzare no?

I’m loving having all these music classes. Granted, right now most of it is just review of things I learned in Music Theory class in high school, but it’s great to be doing something that I’m interested in every day. I love learning about the music business, and being in choir thats at a college level. Even voice lessons are nice, no matter how weird it is to say that.

So basically college is great, but I do miss everyone at home. My next break is in October, so I’ll be coming home the 16th-19th. I hope I can see most of you then.

-Dave

College, Take 1

So college is supposed to be all about discovering things about yourself right? Well apparently I am a very impatient person. After all, this is only my third day here, and I feel dissapointed with myself that I haven’t really made any new friends yet. It just bothers me that somehow other people have gone out and just randomly made new friends when I would definitely try, but haven’t really gotten the chance. I mean maybe I’m just not outgoing enough (I can’t believe I’m saying that) but I can’t just walk up to a person and say “hey, do you wanna hang out later?” I don’t know, I feel like thats just kinda unwanted.

So I don’t know how this is going to work. Maybe once classes actually start up things will change? I’ll keep you all posted…well anyone who reads this that is.

-Dave

Joseph Recap

I just realized I haven’t been on here in so long that I didn’t update how the summer show went. It was REALLY good. Everyone did a wonderful job and the brothers especially kicked ass with our harmonies and everything. Basically, if you didn’t see it, you really missed out. Dan Shaw was spectacular as Joseph, and we got a standing ovation every night. So think about that next time you’re debating whether or not to come to a show.

-Dave

The Campus Life For Me

Well I was really looking forward to this, being on my own, no parents with rules, and the fact that I would be making my own decisions. Little did I know that something I’ve hated all my life would come back once again to ruin my plans. First of all I’d just like to say upfront that I’m not stereotyping all football players into this category, but me and Dan got stuck in the athletic dorm, and our hallway is full of the most shit-faced football meat heads you’ve ever met. Basically it’s going to be a long year with these assholes living in our hall, and I’m really not looking forward to all the crap I’m gonna have to deal with.

Other than that though, college life seems pretty alright. Stayed up till 1 at our friend Megan’s dorm just talking about stuff which was really cool. Not to mention no one calling and asking when you’re going to be home and everything. I mean I knew this was how it was gonna be but, it’s still bizarre to actually feel it.

Basically if I can survive the dousche bags down the hall, this should turn out to be a pretty good first year. I miss all my friends though, and I can’t wait to see you all on breaks.

-Dave

The Lips, The Teeth, The Tip of the Tounge.

So if you don’t know, I had my wisdom teeth out two days ago. Basically, it sucks. I mean the procedure didn’t hurt or anything, but this whole not being able to eat solid food after thing, really isn’t my style. I also didn’t like not remembering being knocked out, or waking back up again. It’s like there’s a blank spot in my mind from when I got the needle stuck in my arm, to when I woke up coherent in the car on the way home. Basically the whole thing is just a big hassle.

So I feel very restless. I’m pretty sure it’s just my mind letting me know it’s time to go out on my own, off to college. Still, I’m getting very sick of this same old routine. I need to do something different. I’m not sure what.

-Dave

A New Age

Well, as I write this post I am sitting in Kyle’s family room while he, Dj, and I all sit on our new laptops that we got for school. It’s bizarre what technology does to people no? One of these days I bet people won’t even have to communicate at all anymore. Everything will be run by AI and it’ll be exactly like the Terminator. I sincerely hope not though, that would suck.

So the show is going well actually. I’m surprised to find myself saying this, but rehearsal was actually good today. We did a lot of choreography, and even if some of the show might be a little “iffy,” I know that the brothers will be awesome. Speaking of which, we’re going to have a new one. Brandon doesn’t have enough time to do the show, so I asked Josh Lyberg to fill in for him. He’s gonna get back to me once he checks the dates, but if he can do it that will be awesome.

The benefit concert is this saturday. Yikes. Today we had Ember Days practice, and I’m not too worried about that anymore, it’s Dinner 4 Four that concerns me. We haven’t practiced all our stuff together yet, and I’m having Kyle play Djembae on stuff and he needs to learn it. I hope everything will go well though, and you should still come see the show anyway. July 19th from 7 to 11 pm.

-Dave

Long Runnings and Short Comings

So this week is going to be one of the longest weeks ever. I have so much to do and so little time to do it in. Shall I recap for the sake of you, the reader? Indeed I will.

Saturday is the benefit concert at my church to benefit the organization To Write Love on Her Arms. 4 bands are playing in it, including my band Dinner 4 Four, and also the church band that I’m a part of called Ember Days. Now usually I would only have to schedule practices and make decisions for Dinner 4 Four, but since my dad is going to be out of town soon, I am also in charge of deciding what Ember Days is going to play, and scheduling practices for them as well. So that gives me 4 days (including today) before the concert.

So an intelligent person would say, practice everyday of that 4 days before the concert is supposed to happen right? Well not only do I have to be practicing with the bands, but we still have Joseph rehearsals for 3 of those days. Also, the Joseph rehearsals have been extended to 3 hours each day so we can work on choreography as well as music. So this takes 3 hours out of each day that I can no longer prepare for the benefit.

So to top it all off, and end the recap, this week I have to schedule as many band practices as possible for two bands, be at Joseph rehearsals each day, work around the house because I was too late finding a job, and in the back of my mind will always be my oral surgery scheduled for 2 days after the concert. Getting my wisdom teeth pulled is just a lovely topping to the already hectic sunday that I will be attempting to consume over the next few days. (I rather like that metaphor actually). So I will keep you updated as much as possible but don’t expect many more blogs as lengthy as this one for a while.

-Dave

It’s About Time

Well everyone, sit back, relax, and grab some snacks because we’re in for a bumpy ride with this post. First of all I’d just like to say that this has been a long time coming. It’s about time that I let all this crap out as opposed to locking it up inside, and since I love for my problems to be known to everyone else…ha…I figure I’ll do it on this blog. (Really I just don’t want anyone else to make the same mistakes and you should all take this example into account in your own lives). So I was standing in the shower this morning, just thinking about everything as I normally do, and my mind wandered to a subject it had not touched on for a few weeks now. It was a matter of friendship, or more appropriately, the loss thereof.

So in life, friendship is very important. I’m writing that as a statement because I’m fairly sure I’d be hard-pressed to find anyone who disagreed with it, and if they did it would probably be for a terrible and saddening reason. So if friendship is very important, losing someone’s friendship can be one of the worst catastrophes in life. I completely agree with this statement as well, but I have encountered something much worse than just losing someone’s friendship. I have encountered losing your friend, but the friendship remaining intact. You’re probably asking yourself how that can possibly happen, and a while ago I would have been with you. The predicament I speak of is an empty friendship. A hollowed out version of the happiness you once shared with that individual. As an example, I’ll pan out a theoretical encounter between two such people.

Say you’re walking down the hallway to class and you see your friend sitting outside the door waiting for it to be unlocked. Now a few months ago you would have walked up to them with a smile on your face and talked about how both your days had been going and when you were going to hang out next. You might even have exchanged an inside joke or two in the process. However, this time you calculate that since the door is locked you will be forced to make conversation with them instead of just giving a casual head nod and continuing on your way as you have been doing since your friend disappeared. You exchange formalities such as “Hey, whatsup?” and a “Not too much, how about you?” and then a sigh of relief escapes your lips as the teacher unlocks the door and lets you inside. This is what your “friendship” has become. You still feel obligated to be polite to one another, but the spark, the happiness that lit the relationship before, has gone out.

I have never experienced anything as frustrating, or as deeply depressing to me as this situation. I find that I have retreated away from my lost friend. Since summer has come around I haven’t been forced to make contact or even exchange formalities anymore. It’s almost like that friend was only a dream from long ago. This upsets me even more than the fact that I lost my friend. The worst part is that I didn’t do anything about it. I took the whole thing personally and let my hurt cancel out the longing to make peace and restore my friend to the amazing friendship we once had. In essence, I let it go without a fight. I was too wrapped up in my own feelings to reach out and really be a friend instead of mourning the loss of mine. This is the mistake I spoke of earlier. My mistake wasn’t being friends with this person before, and it wasn’t continuing the hollow friendship that was left behind, it was letting that FRIEND, not the friendship, slowly slip away while I nursed my own wounds instead of reaching out a hand and letting them know “I’m here for you, I’m your friend.”

Friendship is important, but your FRIENDS are what make the friendship what it is.

-Dave

Storm

Well today there was a huge storm that rolled in somewhere around 8 or so. It’s funny because outside it looked like there could have been a hurricane but it really didn’t rain very hard at all.

I’m so completely ready for college. I mean yes, I’m nervous and it’ll be a new and probably scary experience at points, but I’m sick of being stuck around the house and having to abide by my dad’s crazy rules lately. I’m not sure if it’s just because I’m leaving, but he’s become so much more tightly wound than he used to be. Sufficed to say getting away and being on my own for a while will probably do both of us some good. I’m also glad I’m rooming with Dan Shaw, it’ll be nice having someone I know there for me all the time.

I think I’m gonna just leave it at that tonight. I don’t really feel like ranting about my social life, and there’s not a lot to talk about anyway.

-Dave